If this were to be a blog posting, I would say the following. 

Before I change my mind, I should publish a primal side of myself that I don’t see often enough. 

So I went to a show tonight. <new band I like a lot> kicked ass. It was probably the best time I’ve had in ages. I actually can’t remember a better time. I’ve been in the center of the crowd plenty of times. I’ve been into the music and felt like I should actually be in the center before. I’ve added to the momentum of the crowd before. I’ve been the straw, the catalyst, the tipping point before. 

And this time I suppose I was that again, but there was no trying, no caring, no thinking, no headtripping about my ‘role’ as a fan in a show, or any sort of predefined expectations, or meta-thoughts, self-conscious thoughts, psychobable perspectives on what was going on. I was one of the masses, and I liked it. I was a fan and a fan that was entertained. Not only by the musicians, but by the crowd, and the fully-visceral experience as a member of the crowd. 

There was a moment where the singer said to us, you are the best crowd ever. And she meant it. It was true. 

What else? the sweat? the bodies, the slamming around, the pushing and being pushed, the being held up by the physics of being too packed to just fall over.

Why do people keep coming to shows? Because it is a primal release that our isolationist-sepratist organic-biological-bodies crave.

I suppose it makes sense, we (I) live without much touch on a day-to-day level, so of course it builds to a point of craving going to see a band I’ve listened to millions of times already, slammed around already, but with other people doing the same, crammed in one tiny place. 

Anyway, if you are one to say at home and shy away from crowds, you are missing out. At least try it if you think you don’t like it. Maybe you’ll be surprised. 

Enough of my soap box. It wasn’t that amazing but at least its some sort of passion worth sharing. (I have much more, it just doesn’t get funneled though the publicplayedoutblogosphere that much.)